Friday, June 17, 2011

Friday Five: Stairway to Surprise

Jan has given us a new Friday Five:

I am currently reading a book entitled Stairway of Surprise: Six Steps to a Creative Life by Michael Lipson. His premise is a quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson: "I shall mount to paradise by the stairway of surprise." Lipson's book is about practicing or developing six inner functions--thinking, doing, feeling, loving, opening, and thanking.

So these categories of attention are a jumping off point for today's Friday Five:

Pick five of the six actions and write about how you are practicing them today or recently. For a bonus, write about the sixth one you originally didn't choose!

What or how are you

1. thinking?  I am thinking that today's 'win/lose' dynamic is going to kill us as Church, nation or even human race.  We must find a middle ground. 

2. doing?  Sitting on my butt and doing nothing and herein lies the problem!  I just resigned from an organization that I thought I would enjoy but found that I have nothing to offer them at present.  What they need, I cannot give.  I just don't have it within me to give it.  It is very disappointing.

3. feeling?  Depressed and angry.  I have been feeling this for the past month.  Guess it is time to find a counselor.

4. loving?  I am loving having a house on one floor, a yard to look at that I don't have to mow and the time to enjoy it.

5. opening?  I guess I have been stymied by the fact that I thought I would have a parish by now.  The continued legal hassels in the diocese preclude this.  With J's illness, it has been hard to start anything new.  Even cooking has become a problem. 

6. thanking?  This IS the problem and I am not thankful at present.  Oh, I am thankful for all my friends, their prayers and support.  Depression makes thankfulness difficult.


altar ego said...

I hear the hard place in which you find yourself, and depression does drape life in its veil. Prayers that light lifts the veil, and leads you to newness in life.

Jan said...

I am so sorry for all the hard times. I have been depressed, so I know enduring that is difficult. I hope you can find a good counselor. Take care, and if you'd like to email to "chat," please do!

jill said...

Prayers for you during this challenging time. Sometimes not having a schedule is not the best fit.

Susan@FruitfulWords said...

I am here from RevGals FF. Sounds like a difficult season for you. I agree, when I am depressed it is hard to be thankful, start new things or even maintain a schedule. So glad you have support from friends.

Praying that God will show you what your next step is while you wait and that someone unexpectedly drops by with a delicious meal.